昨天的你  到底经历了些什么
今天的你  还背着怎样的负担

昨天的我  冲动自以为是
今天的我  要学习的还多

昨天  的我们
今天  怎么了

愿有一天

明天  的你
明天  的我

一起  经历些什么
一起  承受着负担

I never imagined that I’d write poetry in mandarin. Am also wondering whether 从前/今日 is a better choice over 昨天/明天.

I don’t know why the chinese text doesn’t show up in the post’s title, so it’s I placed an additional one in the body text.

You are so beautiful to me?

Can’t you see…?

How long has it been that I’ve forsaken you?
But…seriously. I’m back.

Was walking out to lunch with the 2 interns, R & E. We usually have techie conversations, with today’s conversation touching on programming (E having just coded a small application). A few days ago E wondered how computers/applications calculated randomness. I posited that it should be quite simple (having learnt a bit about it before); some of the ways:

1. To include a certain percentage in which a certain event happened.
2. In RPG games, a certain ratio was assigned to each tile your character stood on, determining whether you would ‘randomly’ face an enemy. The ratios in each tile changed every second or so, so it was rather time-dependant.
3. The use of the math.random function, as in languages like Java.

E debated that even with percentages and ratios, it’s not really random. The programmer still preassigns certain ranges of values. And we really didn’t know how the math.random function worked. “How does the computer know how to generate random numbers, even with the math.random function?”, he exclaimed.

Flash back to today.

Having researched on randomness, E revisited the topic. What we thought to be random, was not random at all. Obviously human beings could come up with random numbers, but computers, although having artificial ‘intelligence’ would have to base that randomness on something. It turns out that certain computers/applications base it on a long string-ed number. E.g something like 2348923048902348902348909090909090909090909090909090909090909090909090909090909090909023481394891057
1907591375901759017219830123893284902384890849084902384902384908329048390284092384903284902384902384902
3849238401849018490389014890134890384290489008.…

You get the idea. It’s a fixed, pre-determined long of digits. And I guess the application will pick a certain portion of that number at a certain point in time to work with and generate that random number.

But my main point today is not about computer programming. E’s next statement is the main focus of today’s topic. He said that even whatever happens in life is not random. There’s cause and effect. As seen in computer programming, random events or numbers are not really random. There’s something out there that decides, causes things to happen. It’s quite heartening to hear that from a pre-believer.

So I call out to my brothers & sisters who already believe. Whatever happens in your life… know. Know that nothing happens by chance. They can be caused by your own, and others’ actions. Know that Our Father, the great programmer of life, is in control. I quote from one of my older blogs(25 Dec 2005!):

“God is the creator. Therefore He knows all the variables. He knows all the possible permutations and combinations which will lead to the fulfillment of His perfect plan.

So we might see things as being bad, or we question why certain things have to happen. Through my current walk with Christ, I have realised that God allows certain things to happen. When you’re ‘in it’; i.e the ‘situation’. You won’t be able to see why it happens. But one day God will let you see why it happens. Be it 1 month after, or years after. But only then will you acknowledge that, ‘Yes, God has everything in control’. And He is able to use our mistakes and failures for His glory.”

I end this entry by saying that for God to make the best out of it, we must desire to be obedient to Him, to be set apart. Oh what bountiful blessings flow from the grace of God when we are right with Him!

“There He stands with arms outstretched and
He runs toward us when we arrive.
He throws His arms around us and all that He is fills our spirit.
For this day He has waited and no greater joy could possibly exist.”

Those were James’ lines toward the end of the musical yesterday. It reminded me of the song we wrote at the workshop early this year.  It is based on the Parable of the Lost Son/Prodigal Son, Luke 15:11–32. (Click ‘continue reading’ for the song)

Live recording (Poor quality).

Music & Lyrics by Ian Wong, Wei Yong, Gaius Liang and Joshua Sim

Verse 1
Lost in the desert, Found by Your grace
I was alone, Then I saw Your face
Into Your arms, I gladly come
Put your robe around me, And set me free

Chorus
I wanna run to You
Into Your arms wide open
I wanna be found in You
And embrace Salvation

Verse 2
With tears on Your face,
You welcome me home
My sin You have forgotten,
My shame you have removed

Though I dont deserve it,
You called me Your son
Was dead but now I am alive
Was lost and now Im found

Verse 3
Wont you draw me deeper,
Than Ive ever been
To trade the treasures of this world,
For treasures unseen

Wont you fill me up Lord,
More and more each day
I want to know the power of the cross

I’m not giving much details here, but I’m slowly working on … stuff.

Going to bed early, waking early. Hope to make it habitual.

11.28pm

梁咏琪 — 聊天
专辑:Amour
词：林夕 曲：金城武 编曲：张佳添

我最想看的已经不是你的眼
我最想亲的已经不是你的脸
如果有那一天
我们最好的消遣
就是分享
两个人的缺点
我最渴望的不是悸动的缠绵
我最期待的不是心跳的冒险
要抚摸你思想
要看着你失眠
不要一起
分享一个
电视机的画面
陪我聊天陪我聊天
不要什么诺言
只想知道你现在样子
来自什么从前
一直聊天一直聊天
收集万语千言
一直聊到我们的额角
冒出一条感情线